I’ve always devoured pop culture—music, movies, the rhythm of it all. It made me feel complete. There was an energetic pull that recharged me to 100%. It wasn’t just entertainment; it was part of who I was, and for a long time, it’s what I prioritized.
As an artist myself—someone who’s been writing scripts and songs since I was young—I’ve always felt deeply connected to the craft. While living in Atlanta, I made it a point to stay close to the pulse of the industry: I volunteered for the city’s Grammy Chapter, took vocal classes at Jan Smith Studios, and trained with Corrine Oviedo. I even wrote and sang on a gospel track.Beyond these actionary steps, my senses have always been tuned in when it comes to sound and what’s about to break through the charts—no matter the genre. Lyrics, beats, artist energy… I’ve always had an A&R-style intuition. The frequency of art has always been very present in my life.
It moved me, guided me, and reflected parts of me I couldn’t always express verbally.
When my spiritual awakening came, silence ushered in.
This part of me got hit hard. The joy I once found in music, TV, and media vanished. What used to bring me alive suddenly felt hollow. My emotional sensitivity heightened to the point where I couldn’t tolerate drama or noise. The static of external sound wasn’t just overstimulating—it became unbearable. I couldn’t sleep with sound anymore, even though it once soothed me. Even ocean waves, which used to calm me, started to feel more aggressive than smooth. I had already stopped being a TV person years before, but now it felt like my attention, my sight, and my ears had all narrowed to a limited bandwidth of information. Everything became filtered. My senses no longer allowed in what wasn’t aligned.
However, even in that depletion, my energy remained aware. I could still perceive, still participate, still understand the layers of what was happening around me—but from a different seat. One that wasn’t purely emotional. It was intuitive. Detached, but deeply present. And that kind of presence often feels gnarly or off-putting to people who are used to reaction-based communication.
Even in depletion, my energy remained aware.
Los Angeles, 2020
I was still empowered, even in exhaustion. And when I finally stopped resisting the shift, I began to understand: I wasn’t meant to abandon that side of me—I was meant to approach it with clarity, discernment, and purpose. I decode it. I witness it. I translate what I receive from a higher place. I’m now back in a space where I can allow sounds in again—without feeling triggered.
I’ve learned to compartmentalize them in ways that serve me better in my daily life. I curate what I consume. The journey taught me a lot—often the hard way, and often in silence. But now that the smoke has cleared, I’ve been able to decipher my purpose with deeper clarity. I look forward to decoding the things I listen to, the energy I engage with, and the cultural moments that move me.
And as I continue to process it all, I’ll be sharing my findings along the way.
In the meantime, here are five gentle truths I wish I had when I was just beginning this path. May they meet you where you are—and remind you that your becoming is unfolding just as it should.
Navigating Your Spiritual Awakening.
1. Let Yourself Rest
Awakening isn’t a sprint—it’s a deep, internal marathon. Your body and soul will need more rest than ever before. Sleep, meditate, or simply be still. Honor your body’s signals.
2. Trust the Isolation (It’s Temporary)
You might lose touch with friends or interests as you change internally. That feeling of isolation isn’t a punishment—it’s creating sacred space for deeper clarity. Trust that aligned connections will come.
3. Journaling is Medicine
Put your experiences onto paper, no matter how chaotic. Writing helps you untangle emotions, track growth, and makes sense of your transformation. It becomes your roadmap back to yourself.
4. Find the Helpers (They’re Out There)
Seek out people who understand your journey—whether mentors, therapists, energy workers, or supportive friends. You don’t have to navigate this alone. Allow your intuition to find them.
5. Choose Your Intake Wisely
Your heightened sensitivity might mean certain music, media, or environments become unbearable. Curate your inputs intentionally. Prioritize things that nourish your peace, not disrupt it.
Since writing this, I’ve begun curating playlists that shift emotional energy.
Here’s one……..
The Sound Label Vol. I — Thaw & Flow. A Sonic Manifesto for the Now-You.
